Life, Time, Reflections

     Well, I've never really been the best at keeping up with "journal-type" stuff, so I apologize for the ridiculous amount of time between my last blog entry and now! In any case, I will try to sum up the last while in so many words.

     First, let me tell you what has inspired me to start back up on my blogs! I would be remiss if I didn't mention my friend Marc Oslund! He recently started his own blog again. If you would like to follow him, his blog site is marcoslund.blogspot.com. Follow him! He is a truly an inspired man and you will learn a lot from him! Anyways, like I said, him starting to blog again inspired me to give this another go and actually keep up with it!

     Another reason why I've decided to start blogging again, and probably the main reason, is because of some reflecting that I've been doing recently. I've been thinking about who I think I am, who I think I want to be, who other people might think me to be, who my Savior and Father in heaven expects me to be, and who I am currently being. One might think that's a lot of different perspectives from which to look at yourself…and it is. I think it's a kind of refreshing "exercise" if you will; doing some self-reflecting. Anyways, that's what I've been thinking about recently.

     Now, don't judge me, but I found that almost every single one of those are different people! At the same time, I wouldn't say that's bad. (Of course I would say it's bad though, right? I mean I'm talking about myself here!) I wouldn't even say any of it's bad. I have just come to realize that I want most of those versions of myself to be the same person.

     I think we would all nearly agree that there are a lot of influences in the world that pull us in every direction, yes? Well, they influence even our minds, and therefore our actions. Put all that together and what do we get? We get a mixed product of society. I believe that this can be either good or bad; one of the weighing factors being our actions. (I won't get too deep into that, for that could be a real philosophical discussion!) Anyways, we get all these different ideas of maybe who we're supposed to be, it can be confusing. Thus, explains the reflecting I've been doing.

     As I've mentioned before, I'm a member of the LDS church, or Mormons. We have a practice each month that we participate in called Fast Sunday. This is where we fast (go without food or drink) for two meals or 24 hours. We dedicate this time for a specific purpose that we specify to the Lord in hopes that He will see our sacrifice (food and drink) as a commitment to Him, showing Him that we would like some help in accomplishing/achieving/fulfilling this purpose. It's quite the experience if you have never done it and would like to try it. It helps strengthen a lot of things such as faith, self-control, diligence, testimony, resolve, etc.

     Anyhow, just yesterday I fasted. I don't usually share what I fasted for, but I will today seeing how it is part of the purpose for why I'm on here right now! ;) I fasted for the Lord to help me see who I'm supposed to be/who He would like me to be and how I'm supposed to accomplish that. All day, I was waiting for this big lightbulb to come on in my head, an overflowing of the Spirit, a light in the darkness, I DON'T KNOW. I was waiting for something spectacular to happen, I guess you could say. Well, this type of experience didn't come. Instead, I found myself doing things that I hadn't done in a long time. Some of those things were things like planning my day, the next day, and even the whole week; thinking about what I was gonna write in this blog; reading my scriptures "more than usual" on a Sunday; and other things. At the end of the day, as I was laying here in my bed, I thought about all of those things I had done and realized that the Lord had sent me the help I needed for today. He got me started.

    Now, just like anything else, it's gonna take a lot of effort on my part to shape myself into, or even "back into," the person I know I was. It's interesting to think that the way the Lord helped me was by inspiring me to do things that I've done in the past. Maybe you can call it "going back to who I was," or something like that. In any case, I know what I need to do to get started on the road to "Kenny," and I know I've got help.

     If anyone out there is lost, can't seem to find what they're looking for, doesn't know what they should be looking for, doesn't know who they are, trying to find out who they are, or anything of the like, I would encourage you to look to our Creator. You can call Him Lord, God, Almighty, Higher-Power, or even the Big Guy Upstairs. As long as you at least want to believe that He's there and will show/tell you where to start, He'll bless you with that knowledge. Just keep going.

PAST SEVERAL MONTHS

     Within this time that I've been away from this, there's been a few things that have happened. Heidi and I got married! Feb 1, was the date! After we got married, we lived in here in Idaho Falls for a while before we moved down to Utah.

We moved to Utah to try and sell the pest control gig for a while. It didn't work out as well as I was hoping it would have, but it was a good experience that brought her and I closer together.

     We moved back here to Idaho so we could go to school up here at BYU-Idaho. We were living in Rexburg up until a few days ago. We decided to move back down to Idaho Falls (IF) to live with her parents, in order to save some money. I only have a couple semesters left until I graduate, so we thought it would be better to just live here until I graduate and we move on.

     So there you have it! Our life within these past several months all summed up! We look forward to what the future holds for us now! (Hopefully more blogs!)